Renew, Refresh... ;) GLEE!

Okay so I'm out of practice, gosh it's been over a year since I blogged, but I love to write and so I'll be using this as more of a personal space to just jot things down, get back into the swing of having communication prepared and out there for reading. More or less letters to myself hahaha...So get ready for some real boring drones and not necessarily -d-a-i -l-y-, as the description might lead you to believe LOL... perhaps some light bulb inspiring moments (like yesterday's post) and an all out internal dialogue for your voyeuristic pleasure into my minds eye. ;) xo enjoy.

Clearly hands down WED nights have become THE night for television! Have you seen what's out there? GLEE! Cougar Town, Eastwick, New Adventures of Old Christine & Gary Unmarried just to name my faves ;p . Glee is so inspiring, so lively, I always end those episodes with a huge grin on my face, and Cougar Town, well thank gawd for the return of Courtney Cox and her neighbour buddy from Scrubs.. gawd they are comic genius! Tonight's episodes were as hilarious as their predecessors; keeps me from the gloom of Californication on Sundays and Being Erica on Tuesdays. Don't get me wrong I love them too, but they have been getting quite gloomy raw with minor laughable parts in between so the addiction still persists my friends.

Another Thursday, another half month upon us - Halloween around the corner and then my favourite season of all! the HOLIDAYS! *insert Broadway "hollywood theme song here" do do d od odo dod ododdodoo Holllywoood! err rather Holidays! Can't wait for fluffy snow and singsongs. It's the LULL following Dec 27th - April 1st that I could do without! Anyone with me on that one? I find September -December the greatest months of the year in my personal experience this is when I get the most motivated AND gargantuan amounts of opportunity fly my way- where/which are your greatest spurts of the year?

In summary all of these itty bitty seemingly minor things have inspired me to renew and refresh myself on the things that have always made me happy and fulfilled...Being Creative - with Music, Art, Dance, Theatre - things I used to be SO passionate about - so much so that I tried desperately to get my mother on board with my teachers (who saw a spark) and invest some time into my dreams and goals to attend a triple threat program in New York City at 15 years old. She laughed at my ambition and degraded me on the spot at any mention of my passions, that with a full grown up life before the age of 11 sent me spiraling into adulthood with a sincerely muffled spirit that still lingers to roam free and LOUD! I still channeled all that energy into other projects, like relationships with fix-er-upper men, and jobs that couldn't handle my forward thinking approaches - perhaps some may say this was energy wasted - but all in all IT WAS PRACTICE. As what I am doing here today as well. 19 years ago it seemed pretty hard to make true friends or run with the wind, but I did manage - currently with about a 50% increase in my physical size after a sporting injury in my early 20's, birthing 2 children in the later and clawing out of a nasty dragging on divorce and adjusting to single parenting as a SAHM - I'd say it's wreaked havoc on my inner and outer self, so trying to summon up the sheer will and determination of a 17 yr old girl is going to be hard-pressed, but lets see what the experience of a 34 yrold woman, daughter, sister, best friend and mother can accomplish. It may take longer, but Nothing is Impossible (ever seen that movie *thumbelina* with soundtrack from Barry mannilowe? the opening song from the bird is fantastic and inspiring).

...and with that my friends and foes I leave myself with again... a rambling mind to try and sleep with, but lots of dreams to reach for and sweet little faces to wake up to, ... so all is good. xo

See you in the morning.

Love, me. xoxo

Find balance between your goals and your approach‏

• What cards were YOU dealt at birth?
• How has your preplanned destiny taken shape?
• Have you willfully fought against them or embraced and valued them to the core?

We each have our place in community, ranked at: struggling, moderate or harmonious. Do you see the paradoxes of desire to Hold or Break these instinctive biological patterns are so equally dominant and compelling?

We are one in the same.

At odds for distinctly contrasting experiences and somehow managing to meet at the height of terror in which we may Loose or Gain the imminent horizon of our lives for which we wish to escape or envelope and could so impetuously miss or capture the moment(s) all placed delicately in one set of cards, dealt so remarkably at odds.
How then do we as individuals and communities assist ourselves or one another without toppling the delicate balance of our destiny and cards in place? I am baffled and fascinated.

Where do you stand on the subject? Do you agree or disagree with my hypothesis here? ;) Lots of room for discussion and various opinions here ~ do tell I am wildly curious. ;)