Don't believe everything you read - or hear for that matter

I felt the need to get a little bit personal today...
Call it what you will - and I am a woman, so really it is my prerogative. :)

The last few days I have experienced a backlash of negative opinions about who "I am" as a person, so I'd like to tackle that as it has brought up alot of anger and pain - which is now being stored in my neck, shoulders, lower back, & ankles. Do you also store your emotions in your muscles or body? I've had a headache for 3 days and I'd really like to get rid of it...

SO with that said, as you may get to know me & my posts I like to vent by writing it has always soothed me, and so I will attempt that here

~ perhaps you've had a similar thing happen to you ~

One incident is work related and one personal. In both cases I have people examining me and my potential character before they have even had the chance to meet me, get to know me or already know me and have generated falsities about my personality when all I did was show kindness, genuine interest and sincerity in both of their well beings and what may or may not be going on for them at this time. I felt crushed when I read some information from both of them about me citing specific personality characteristics I never portrayed neither before or now. It is hurtful to know that there are still many people in this world who feel the need to power trip, bully or "gossip" by journalling to complete strangers about others just to make themselves feel better. You could argue that I am doing the same here.... however I am in no way identifying the parties I am speaking of and I am taking the direction of this post in a positive, healing way, by just speaking about myself, what I have learned and how I feel about the actions taken towards me. So I do not feel that this is in the same fashion.

These 2 people were mean spirited, insulting, rude, unprofessional and both obviously have self-esteem issues in different ways. As I do not see any other reason for treating or speaking about someone in this fashion, regardless of weather or not you think they might find out. Something in writing is most sure to be found out at some point, it's in print for gawds sake! As I anticipate "they" may also stumble upon this and perhaps think twice before committing these actions towards anyone else, (I highly doubt it would penetrate, but ah I digress) - Anywhoo...

I'm sure someone out there has had this kind of personal injustice laid upon them and can relate to my current series of events. I hold your tender hearts and feelings in my hands and hope that you can feel perhaps some comfort that there are people in the world who love and care deeply about you and these "nay-Sayer's" really don't know much about you at all and their opinions really do not carry any weight on who you really are as a person. Whoever you may be or where you come from. No-one has that right to pre-judge you and in the end, you probably don't want to have a friendship or partnership/working relationship with these people anyway. How productive or positive would those relationships be for you?

Bottom line - It really is the small people in the world who are sensationalizing their fears, by placing them onto others in a negative way and not taking the responsibility of themselves and their own emotions or actions and dealing with them head-on instead of hurting others to make themselves feel bigger or better.

So once again, You are loved, you are cared for and even though I don't know YOU personally - I can tell if you have taken the time to read this that you are a feeling and sensitive human being, and that counts.

Okay all for now - Thank you for allowing me to see the light on this subject by putting words on the page. Stay Focused, Stay Real, Be Yourself, and nothing else matters, cause you were made just the way you are for a very good reason - cause somebody needed you - and you needed someone too. Enjoy your evening(s) Hugs & High Fives! to all my wounded souls out there.

P.S. It's amazing how much effort and belief we put into negative things we hear about ourselves, especially when it comes from an acquaintance or stranger! If we put that kind of energy into all the positive and facts we actually DO know & have been told about ourselves we'd all be alot better off :) and imagine what the world would be like then? A Kinder, Gentler place to live - I'd surely love that