A little over 2 weeks to her first birthday, my ambitious little Emmerson took a couple of half steps yesterday and one FULL step today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It always amazes me how children develop so intensely in the first year of life. The first smile, tooth, sound, foods, and of course the first step is no different and yet it creates a HUGE milestone for babies in their "step" towards independence from their parents.
After she beings to toddle around, soon becomes running and then mommy doesn't feel the "neediness" of the baby year surrounding her. I feel a double edged sword about this as usual. Knowing this will be my last venture into parenthood (I don't see this in my future again) and the baby years will shortly be behind me. As I know many more challenges and fun are ahead of me - the baby & pregnancy days are just so fleeting it's hard to let go of. I often rub my empty tummy and recall the days of a fluttering and then vigorous kicks and pokes that once played there. It is a woman's sacred temple and space... I remember 3 years after my first born I was given a gift certificate for a Spa-Day which included a massage - I was really looking forward to it and enjoying it then when I turned over and she began the massage on my tummy... just touching the area brought me to tears. It felt so sacred,.. like something should be co-habitating in there, but it was a cold, empty space, I felt deeply saddened that something was missing there.
However much joy is to follow as most parents can relate to, and to that I hold celebratory thoughts over my baby's major milestone soon to be accomplished into walking and look forward to the short toddler years ahead.
Hope you were out and about enjoying this beautiful weather we were having today. The sun always warms the soul and inspires hope for the future.
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